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Post by eniisa on Oct 22, 2005 2:45:32 GMT -5
I wake up everyday, without a purpose or place, constantly pondering tomorrow, hoping it never comes. Why hope when there is no guarantee that tomorrow will be better than today, no guarantee that I will ever feel happy again. How can there be hope when theres a chance that things could only get worse? I feel like crying, yet how can I cry when Ive forgotten the way a tear is born in my eye, live down my cheek, and die on my chin? I have good friends, they tell me how much they love me, how much they constantly care for me, but what I cannot understand is why I dont believe them. Im scared, scared of being happy again because Ive forgotten how to smile, forgotten what it feels like to be happy; the darkness is so familiar to me. I could smell it in the air, taste it in the water, and feel it in the earth. I feel numb, emotionless; I wonder what the meaning of life is for one like me an empty soul. I want to free myself of this monster that haunts me everyday, devouring me slowly as I walk through the jungle, the forest, the desert, the huge world of which I am only one small person. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Sad really, I still feel like that most of the time but sometimes I enjoy being lonely at school.
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Post by Jessica M. on Oct 22, 2005 8:32:34 GMT -5
So gloomy! Are you depressed? I am a lonely and depressing person as well. And I like to be lonely at school.
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Post by eniisa on Oct 22, 2005 9:48:55 GMT -5
So gloomy! Are you depressed? I am a lonely and depressing person as well. And I like to be lonely at school. I was, though mainly now I'm just sad and hurt.
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Post by linds on Oct 22, 2005 14:47:38 GMT -5
I have a font called 'Goodbye Cruel World' It's a neato font. Why so depressed?
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Post by eniisa on Oct 23, 2005 4:12:00 GMT -5
I have a font called 'Goodbye Cruel World' It's a neato font. Why so depressed? I have that font too lol Umm people are just mean for no apparent reason to me at school and so like, I thought it was all my fault and stuff..
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